When someone treats you like you're just one of many options, help them narrow it down by removing yourself from the equation. I don't know why we all hang onto something that we know full well we're better off without. It's almost like we are scared to lose what we don't even really have. Some of us might say that we would rather have something than nothing, but the truth is, to only have it halfway is much harder than not having it at all. As much as we won't like to admit it, we aren't going to find happiness in the same place that we lost it. One of the hardest pills I've had to swallow was learning how to essentially 'bounce back'. I'm slowly, (but surely) learning that even if I react, it won't change anything - although, I must admit, it's a working progress. I've learnt that I need to do things for myself because the only person that will put you back on your own two feet, is yourself. Your biggest commitment needs to be to yourself. Yes, that is somewhat down to the pride in which you hold, but most importantly, the self-respect you must continue to maintain. If you don't see your own worth, you'll always choose people who don't see it either. One day it just clicks. One day, you will be able to realise what is important and what isn't. One day you will learn to care less about what other people think about you and more what you think of yourself. There's no telling when that time may be, but … when you know, you know!
Although the situation you were put in may have been fake, the lesson it created was real. At the time, it might hurt but that's okay. After all, we're only human! It's what that lesson teaches us that we need to value the most. That's what enables us to move forward. 2020 - we move.